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First of all, it's really glad to see our mommy is feeling much better now. clap clap.
im proud of myself too, really. bcause i have stopped dreaming of him in last week,for THE WHOLE WEEK.sometimes i really thought that i've already put down that feeling. not all, but at lest 50%.
but..actually..=/

the feeling of dreaming someone that is not belong to you anymore..is..pretty sad.
dreaming that he was coming back to my side.
dreaming that he was begging for forgiveness.
dreaming that..both are us are sitting in the car..heading to somewhere we used to go.
everything seems so real, until you really awake and realize it was only a dream.

Knowing he's in sick, i was quite worried honestly. god knows why he is so weak, can actually sick for N times in a year. when there's ulcer, i would bought him a small oral aid. when he's fever, i would ask my sister to pass him a 100+ at school. for now, i can't and i shouldn't do anything, anymore.

There was a birthday celebration of my fren last night. knowing he's attending too, i choose not to go. Although we will still msn or text each other sometimes, but am not ready to face him. i duno what would happen if i was there. =x but, Li wen was there and told me something bout him when we were having a little chit chatting session in my room just now.

she said, he seems happier.
Supposed to be happy when heard that he's fine right now.
but sh*t, i can't, and i didn't feel happy at all.
you can never know how much it hurts. =(

I still couldn't understand what the hell are the boys thinking out there.
As the girls are falling deeper and deeper, but the feelings for boy can be FADED AWAY SO EASILY.
why? no why. This is something that can't be explained.
and where's their heart? no one knows.

Su Ann, it's really not worth for us to sad for so long.
They didn't know how to appreciate, maybe we deserve a better one. x)
it's way easier to say compared to action, but i still believe we can get over it,
sooner or later.

Im all out love.

Im so lost without you.

I know you were right,

believing for so long.